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There is something in me, there always has been, a need to be creative. Whether it is writing, drawing (not well but trying none the less), painting ceramics or boxes, scrapbooking, sewing, building sets & props – I need to be creative.

This need is the reason I opened my little Euphorium store at the back of our Euphoria Smoothie store. Ok, I didn’t open it all by myself I had help from my wonderfully, fabulous friend Effy. She is talented, independent and I see in her all the things I wish I could claim for myself. Only me-ish. Weird right?

Anyway, I have been so busy running the day to day of both of the stores (Hi Honey, I love you), that I haven’t had any time to be creative. And that was the purpose of opening this wonderful artisan consignment shop in the first place. So, what gives.

I’ll tell you what, I may feel creative but I just don’t have the talent to back up what I want to do. I would love to paint & draw – real pictures – actually whimsy pictures (Effy got me hooked on those – they are so fracking CUTE). But, well, I suck at it. I try really hard but I just don’t feel that I am good enough to do it. So, I went traipsing around on the internet (Ok, I stole the link from Effy – she has all the best links to all the best artsy stuff), and found this place:

Now, Effy talks about this place all the time and how fabulous it is. And now she is giving a workshop for this website – I am so excited!
Effy Wild :: Wild. Precious
She creates these beautiful art journals that look so impressive and professional, and I find myself reluctantly comparing my talent to hers – I KNOW, I not supposed to do that but knowing and doing are different things.
As well, a while ago I started receiving e-creative courses from Andrea Schroeder, my self-imposed limits have prevented me from actually doing any of the work, well that and lack of time.  I have saved all of the emails though, I just hope the links still work when I finally decided to take the plunge.
I wandered around on the Dirty Footprints page that talk about the instructors for 21 Secrets and discovered:
Connie Hozvicka :: Dirty Footprints Studio
This workshops seems to lay out all that I have trouble with. I’m so concerned about how it will look that I just don’t get it all out. I would love to do this workshop.
Oh, and then there is:
Lisa Wilson :: Life Unity
Another workshop on just beginning Art Journaling. So, many choices!!!
Actually, I would love to do all these workshops but I just don’t have the time or the money (Hey Mom, can we skip the gift card and can you buy this for my birthday?? 🙂 Please, maybe, okay).
But if you have the chance and have ever felt even the tiniest inclination to be creative, I would check this out.
I think I have attached a button that will take you directly there in my sidebar but I’m just getting the hang of this, so if I haven’t please be patient OR better yet send me instructions on how to do it. 🙂
Ciao for now

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Day 3

Well, I cheated a little bit last night when I went out with a friend. I had an ice creamy alcoholic drink, but I’m not going to beat myself up about it. The rest of yesterday went well. I had raw veggies for lunch: broccoli, green beans, mushrooms and carrots. And then for dinner I made baked 3 cheese tortellini with broccoli and mushrooms. Yummy!

Today, I missed breakfast. So I had some veggie straws (just a handful) at about 10am. Then for lunch I had some non-fat unsweetened yogurt and some cherries and grapes with granola. For dinner the hubby and I are going to have the leftover tortellini from last night.

I think I’ll take out some of the ground turkey that I bought and cook it up to add to the veggie chili I have in the freezer. Should be delish.

I really do have to remember to eat breakfast of some sort. Even if it is to nab an apple and some grapes to eat while I’m doing all my running around.


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I have come to the realization that I have nonexistent willpower. So, I’m starting again. I have three specific goals in mind:

  • to eat cleaner so that I can be healthier
  • to lose 30lbs
  • to try and stick to as much natural (green) eating, cleaning, etc., as I can

To this point I have been somewhat unsuccessful in the eating department. I don’t have a problem cleaning green or living green. I turn off lights; I try and conserve water (we installed a rain barrel for the yard); I even use only lemon juice, vinegar, water and bergamot to clean with (I’ll post the recipe); or given a truly green alternative (see a previous blog about Nature Clean products), I use those. My issue is with food.

I used to say that I only eat to survive, because I have too. But after some serious contemplation and some guidance from the Goddess, I realize now that I am lying to myself. I eat when I am angry, depressed, sad, happy or bored. This destructive pattern of filling a void with food has to stop.

How? I have started painting again. I’m also sketching some fun characters (thanks to my lovely Fey), and I am generally starting to become more creative. A venue that has been sorely lacking thus far. The problem there is that when I get going on a project, I forget to eat. That is not healthy. So, I’m starting over.

I am going to carve time out of everyday to be creative in some way, even if it is just sketching for an hour. I am also going to make time to sit with the Goddess every day. Especially the one inside me. And I am going to eat better. There I said it out loud. Now, how do I ensure that what I am eating is good for me; that I am not eating too much or that I am eating enough. That is where this blog comes in, and anybody who reads it. This space and its readers (provided there are any) are going to be my Jimminy Cricket – yep, my conscious.  I’m going to write out everything I eat over the course of the day for the next 30 days, and if I don’t log in anyone has the right to message me and say something. Just be kind.

So, today I am starting the day with a cup of fresh ground brewed coffee, sweetened with honey, spiced with ginger and cinnamon and lightened ever so slightly with almond milk. It’s a little more bitter than I am used to considering I usually have a triple triple but it’s not bad. I’m going to get some more agave nectar when I have a chance and try that instead. I am eating a bowl of red grapefruit pieces, unsweetened yogurt with some really yummy granola (from St. Jacob’s market) on top. The granola is high in calories but I have put less than a 1/4 cup on it and it has wonderful things in it like currants, raisins, almonds, oats,  and sunflower seeds.

That’s breakfast. If I get hungry a little later I will have some grapes or an apple.

See you at lunch.

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Newly Begun

Okay, so here it is. My Blog. Follow along if you wish. I’m not really sure where this is going to lead but I’m sure it will be a fabulous journey. I do have lots on my plate but all of it is positive in nature. As I said on my Facebook status – “I’m putting it out there. So deal with it!”

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